I'm homesick of places I've never been to
I've read that on facebook a couple of days ago in a group of exchange student just like me : "I'm homesick of places I've never been to". I think it describes exactly how I feel right now : sick, not happy, in need to TRAVEL. When I see pictures, videos or articles about other countries it makes me wanna travel so badly. I don't know if everyone has the feeling of wasting their time in one place rather than experience things like I do but seriously this is killing me. I am not complaining about my life because nothing is wrong with it. I have great friends, an education, my parents... but I think I have like a post-exchange-year-boredness. I had an exciting experience back in California and now everything is so predectible, school, school, school. I remember feeling really sad sometimes in Cali, I think it was because I was scared to leave, or sad to be far away from my family or not being able to eat french food (just kidding). I never could explain why I had this dark and sad shadow inside me. Well, I'm feeling just the same way right now. I need to move and do something new or I will start to eat a lot again and sank deeply. Exchange student struggle number one Food. But because I know it, I have control over myself.
Life has been though lately, my mom is almost okey. She doesn't have to take strong medicine treatment for her cancer but she has to choose between getting surgery and "cut off" her boobs or have radiation and "burn" the cancer but it might come back if she does so (idk how it's called). With all this going on, my grades aren't as good as it was until december. It's not terrible either. I need to pull myself together and end up this year with success not failure. AS YOU WILL.
Happy 2016 XD starting bad to get better !!! Have confidence in yourself :)
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