I am an endomorph, let's face the truth
This is quiet ironic : me writing about weight loss and diet and "life style". Because I'm insanely depressed about my body most of the time and clearly, I shouldn't give advise about those things. However, I have made tons of reasearch about those subjects and I'd like to summarize a little bit all of this.
I have never been super skinny, I was always in a "normal" shape until I went to the States where I gained 10 kg (22ibs-ish). Ever since I came back, I'm obessed about my weight. It's driving me crazy because I'm very very scared to become fatter. I feel like if I don't get fit I would miss opportunities in life... like meeting someone really cool or a job or being invited to amazing parties... whatever. I lose all my confidence when I think about my body. I am so obessed and insane that I weight myself almost everyday even though I know it's crazy and unhealthy. Seems like my weight is the story of my life... this is even scarier haha.
Fortunatly, I've lost almost all the weight I had gained in California. My efforts has somehow paid off. I'm now 1,58m for 49kg.
Obviously, this is bullshit because weight is unpredictable, it's constantly going to move, always and forever. I/we need to face the truth that we are all different and we need to accept ourselves the way we are. I am faaaar from this truth but my goal is to stop watching every single girl who cross my way thinking "OMG! I'm so fat compared to her!" or "How could a guy like me, I'm so ugly". I sound pathetic. There will always be a girl more beautiful than you and more in shape.
Of course it doesn't mean you can't change some "bad" habits to improve your health. This is a small list of things, commitments I've changed in my lifestyle :
1) Drinking lots of water and green tea and less alcool
2) Big breakfast, medium lunch, small diner (if possible)
3) Walking as much as possible (because I'm not a sporty girl that's my way to exercise)
4) Trying out new activites (taichi for myself and it's pretty cool)
5) No sweet drinks, no industrial cookies, no fast food, no nutella
6) Making the healthy choice when you feel like you can handle it (order a nice salad or just a dish and no dessert, eat yogurt not cheese... idk some easy little things)
I've discovered today that I am an endomorph which means I gain weight easily but I lose fat hardly : "Endomorphs are characterized by increased fat storage around the midsection, hips, and thighs. They have slower metabolisms by nature and a lower tolerance for carbohydrate-rich foods. The most common goal of endomorphs is the loss of body fat." That explains everything
I could talk/write for hours about the why, how it feels, how people see you, how long.... but I think I've made my point. We need to accept who we are and face the truth of diversity (me first)!